tabulas.com

Try having most of the important people in your life not liking the person you love the most.

Yes, I say not liking because hating would be a bit too much and I would be hurting myself if I use that word.

You cannot judge someone and not like them without knowing the person first. So, how can you say that you don't like the person?

I just don't get why they feel that way when in fact, and I'm sure, that they could clearly see and feel how happy you are with that person? Isn't your happiness enough for them to appreciate the person? Would they feel better if they see you grieving, sad and depressed just as long as you are separated from that person?

Yes, I am taking it as a challenge of Me and Him Against The World.

Would you be satisfied if we prove to you we can survive this relationship and be happy no mater how many people disapprove?

Don't you even realize that you, yourself, are hurting me just by what you say about him?

And you call yourself CONCERNED?

Yeah. Right.

I would understand if you say you have your reservation of doubt for him because I myself still has my own reservation of doubt. But I don't let that affect our relationship. Things happen for a reason and I believe God has a plan for all of us. That's why I'm with him. And that's why we have this trial to deal with. It's all part of the plan.

You could at least show that you are trying to understand and accept our relationship.

AT LEAST TRY.

Even though I don't see why you couldn't and shouldn't accept us. It's the least you could do.

Because of what you are telling me or showing me, and making me feel, I think that you're so FAKE.

You pretend that you're okay with us, with everything, but between you and me, we both know what you really feel about our relationship. And it sucks to be able to see that side of your personality.

I'd prefer if you could be concerned for me and look after me from afar. Let me learn on my own.

If this works, then GOOD for me. You'll just have to accept him and be happy for me.

If it fails, then SORRY for me. I'll have to accept defeat. And you WIN.

It's the risk that I'm taking, and it's the risk that I am fully aware of when I decided to go through this road of my life.

Listen -- if I have something to say or if I need to get something off my mind and out of the open.

Help -- if I need one and I ask for it.

Advice -- if I need one, I'll seek for it.

But unless I do any of those, TRUST ME.

At least you can trust me that I can handle this.

ON MY OWN.

It has been 4 years. Well, almost 4 years. 2 weeks to go before the relationship turned 4 years old. Girl suddenly asked for space from Boy. Reason? Well, there's someone else now. Root cause? Boy and Girl was drifting apart from each other. Boy had his defense mechanism in action. He was detaching his feelings from Girl. Reason? Girl was to go away to another country to be with her family and to possibly find better working opportunities. Boy tries to talk her out of it, out of the idea of a break up. But it was too late for that. But Boy had no idea that there was someone new in Girl's life. Well, that was during the first week. When he found out, his first question was "Why? Why Him??".

Then stuff was said about Him. One significant info was about Him having a child during his younger years.

Well, that info came as a shock to Girl.

So she immediately asked him about the issue. And he cleared his name and told her the whole story of the issue. The Girl was immediately assured and trusted Him completely. She felt his sincerity and knew that every word he said came from the heart.

That was 6 months ago. 6 FREAKING MONTHS AGO!

Girl and Him had been together even if they are miles away from each other. Everything is going well and good between them. Of course, missing each other terribly is out of the question. They do. They do miss each other so much. But both are determined and fully committed to make their relationship work no matter what.

Now the same darn issue came up during a silent moment in the car between the Girl and her Mom.

It all started while in the mall, after paying the groceries. Dad was missing in action. Girl asked Mom to text Dad in order to know where he went. He might still be inside the supermarket while they had already finished paying the stuff they got. Mom then passed the job of texting Dad to Girl. Mom was always like this; she always ask Girl to text Dad when they are in this situation. Girl thinks Mom is so effortless. It wasn't as if she was going to waste a few cents over a nonsense text to someone unimportant. He was her husband for crying out loud! When Girl tried to convince Mom that she should be the one to text Dad instead of her, Mom snapped back with something about Girl wasting her prepaid credits texting Him. So Girl answered back with: "So? He is my boyfriend! And Dad is your husband so you should text him." And Girl was pissed off from that nonsense conversation.

The silent moment came, when on the way home, they all realized they had forgotten to buy loaf bread for breakfast and lunch. So Dad went to a nearby grocery before heading home.

Mom and Girl was left inside the car, when Mom suddenly asked: "So have you heard the news? Well, I guess you already know the news."

Girl asked: "What news?"

Then Mom, "You're boyfriend got someone pregnant."

Girl, who was shocked from what Mom said, asked "What? Where'd you get that story?"

Girl had only one suspect. The only possible person who knew about this story and who Mom could believe without even blinking an eye. It was Boy. Girl had recently found out that Mom and Boy was still communicating with each other. Probably by email or even by texting. She didn't think this would be a problem. Well, not until now.

Well here's what I've got to say to you BOY.

You don't have the right to say anything like that. You don't know the story. You're the past, get over it. If you're trying to ruin the relationship, well, try again. And again. And again. Until you burn out from trying too hard. So what if you think you have Mom's sympathy and approval? I don't care. I don't give a damn. My heart doesn't approve anyway. Or, since Mom likes you, maybe you two should be together. That's so pathetic, what you did. Tell more stories if you want, as much as you want. But look at yourself in the mirror and remember that you yourself have skeletons in your closet. Atleast He would be responsible for the child if the story was true. ENOUGH SAID. You know what happened. So stop trying to win everyone's sympathy, you got them already. Whatever issues He and I have, it's my problem. It's our problem. If you're thinking straight, maybe you would know where your boundaries are. KNOW YOUR BOUNDARIES. DON'T EVEN TRY STEPPING ON THE LINE. IT WOULD BE BEST IF YOU COULD STEP BACK 100 METERS AWAY FROM THE LINE.

 

If you, atleast, have any respect for me.